A few nights ago, I was on a social network site. I was viewing a friend's page and from that particular page, I linked to another friend and then another...on and on... and then that's when it happened! I landed on a page that brought back a lot of memories.
Originally uploaded by » madelyn
Originally uploaded by » madelyn
When I got married; I sought the counsel of those around me. I knew it was God's will but I wanted the advice of others. A lot of people I told agreed in faith that hubby was the one but a particular person told me to break things off. Even after I took a step in faith with Hubby and began a relationship, this friend continually told me that Hubby wasn't the one.
Long story short, 2011 will mark my 2nd wedding anniversary with Hubby... and 1 yr without this friend in my life. This person, for reasons I still don't know decided our friendship was best dissolved; calls weren't returned, hangouts were missed, a chapter closed.
It wasn't intentional of me to end up thinking of this person but as I re- hashed events in my head, I wondered for the 100000th time if there was anything I could have done to change things...
What if I had asked... or what if I had gone... or what If I said
Hmm... This baggage was getting in my way.
Once again I was unearthing issues from past years; things God had placed to rest, things that shouldn't bother me...but ummh...well, still did!
For me, its a lost friendship but to others it is a broken relationship, the loss of family or the pain of a broken heart. Regardless of what its wrapped up in,it all leads to feelings of wonder, pain and especially in situations where we feel ourselves innocent of blame; a sincere cry of "Why!?"
Till this day, I don't know the answer to my own "Whys" but one thing I do know is that God has me inscribed in the palm of his hands and in situations where I can't see the forest for the trees, I can rely on the fact that he makes everything work out for my good. These thoughts give me the strength to "...focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead" (Phil 3 vs 13 NLT). Yes, I lost a friend but in return I have gained a husband, a son and a wonderful marriage that some people only dream about. In sorrow there has been a wealth of joy!
When we carry around bitterness and memories of the past, we lug around a weight that keeps up from moving faster and further into our future. These regrets shackle us to the past and have the luxury of rearing its ugly head at the most ill opportune time.
So what are you holding on too? What issues are getting in your way? Is it a broken heart, with pain so deep its hard to get out of bed? Is it anger; unforgivness so heavy it weighs down your spirit? Is it the loss of a loved one; sorrow so thick you can taste it? I am sorry you hurt but I have to tell you...
...This baggage is getting in your way
God has a plan for you and he is ready to place it in your hands. All he asks from you is to open your hands that are so tightly clenched to your past. Open your hands; to release your pain and receive your blessings. We can do this! You and I; let us"...strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.Heb 12 vs 1 (NLT) We can do this!
Just let it go!
...Musings from atop the potter's wheel.