Monday, December 12, 2011

A Time of rest...

Eccle 3 vs 1: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens

So in a few days I will be boarding a plane for a whirlwind week of fun with my girlfriends in england! I should be saying yay but honestly, I am heart broken! Ok, let me start from the beginning. So my birthday passed a few months ago and hubster being the great man he is went all out. Besides taking me out to dinnner, I got a great day of shopping and the icing on the cake was a week long trip to Europe...no hubby...no baby boy...Just me and my girls!

Airline ticket (BW)

Well, since then I've gone through a range of emotions, from doing the happy dance, to going behind the hubster's back to try and cancel the ticket; which turned out to be non refundable. I know... I know...it's crazy but in the midst of (ha..ha..no pun intended) it all, I realized how absolutely achingly hard I was going to miss my boys while I was gone and this made me hesitant and decide not to go. After much debate, the hubster told me that if I truly loved him and baby boy, I needed to go.

...A time to plant

Let me explain...
Doctor or no doctor... I am a FULL time housewife! I cook, clean and care for my family to my utmost. If my boss really knew how many times I've scheduled doctor appointments for baby boy or looked up recipes, or ran last minute errands on company time, they would fire me. I am forever thinking of ways to improve my family's life and if I took one sec to be honest; I am BURNT OUT!

Tired

Don't get me wrong, I love what I do but man... I am tired! Early mornings and late nights, cooking with one hand, holding my text book with the other and rocking baby boy on my hip. So after 19 mths of this, hubby felt I deserve some time away. A whole week , not as a doctor, a mom or even as a wife! A week as plain ol' Inthe....an individual without the responsibility of the world on her shoulders.

A time to reap...

If I plan on continuing in the blessings of marriage, I am going to have to learn how to take care of me. I am going to order pizza for the hubster some nights and curl in bed with a good book, I am going to have to learn how to let baby hang with grandma for a weekend and go window shopping. The more refreshed I am, the better a human being and consequently, a better daughter, wife, mom and so forth.

So in a a little while, I'll board a plane and fly away, my heart might be breaking but I'll paste a smile on my face because I know I'll come back happier, refreshed and ready to be all that I am called to be.

...Musings from atop the potter's wheel...

7 comments:

Jaycee said...

We had the "there's time for everything" discussion lately at home. I loved it. There's time to cook, and there's time to order food. Enjoy in Europe girl...I'm so jealous!

Anonymous said...

Way to go girl, that was sooo sweet and thoughtful of your man. God Bless him.

I simply love your blog, you really inspire me to want to go my all out and do more for my family. What you said about being a FULL time housewife and being a doc notwithstanding truly was a coded message to me.

God Bless you and make sure you enjoy every bit of your time abroad and try not to overthink or worry about how things are running back home (for some reason you strike me as someone who will be calling every minute to make sure things are in order) ;)

In the midst of her said...

JC: HMM, God please deliver me from Super woman syndrome ooh. There is definitely a time and season for everything.


Anon#1: Thank you zoo much for the encouragement. I appreciate you taking the time to read my blog and am humbled that you can learn a thing or 2 from my life. You definitely got me down to a T...I am the chick who will be calling ( or imessaging) the hubster to check on things.

Myne Whitman said...

Enjoy your time away, there is definitely a time for everything.

Jemima said...

Major points for your hubby jor,so thoughtful of him... please go have fun, you ll be better for it i promise, we are more than wives and mums, just go and be you ..enjoy!

Anonymous said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...
habe a wonderful time!

Hephzibah Bride said...

Oh my days girl! I can so relate!!! Hubby was made redundant and so is home with the little ones while I'm out doing the day job. He can cook and will do anything I ask him to, but I choose to still wake up early to cook meals (practically everyday), clean (ha!), do laundery etc. Oh, and try to get a little biz of the ground so that I can reduce my day job hours in order to be at home more. I'm burnt out too.

Hubby keeps telling me to slow down and sometimes let things be cos my wellbeing is more important...I'll try...

Hope you had fun here in England :)