Eccle 3 vs 1: There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens
So in a few days I will be boarding a plane for a whirlwind week of fun with my girlfriends in england! I should be saying yay but honestly, I am heart broken! Ok, let me start from the beginning. So my birthday passed a few months ago and hubster being the great man he is went all out. Besides taking me out to dinnner, I got a great day of shopping and the icing on the cake was a week long trip to Europe...no hubby...no baby boy...Just me and my girls!
Well, since then I've gone through a range of emotions, from doing the happy dance, to going behind the hubster's back to try and cancel the ticket; which turned out to be non refundable. I know... I know...it's crazy but in the midst of (ha..ha..no pun intended) it all, I realized how absolutely achingly hard I was going to miss my boys while I was gone and this made me hesitant and decide not to go. After much debate, the hubster told me that if I truly loved him and baby boy, I needed to go.
...A time to plant
Let me explain...
Doctor or no doctor... I am a FULL time housewife! I cook, clean and care for my family to my utmost. If my boss really knew how many times I've scheduled doctor appointments for baby boy or looked up recipes, or ran last minute errands on company time, they would fire me. I am forever thinking of ways to improve my family's life and if I took one sec to be honest; I am BURNT OUT!
Don't get me wrong, I love what I do but man... I am tired! Early mornings and late nights, cooking with one hand, holding my text book with the other and rocking baby boy on my hip. So after 19 mths of this, hubby felt I deserve some time away. A whole week , not as a doctor, a mom or even as a wife! A week as plain ol' Inthe....an individual without the responsibility of the world on her shoulders.
A time to reap...
If I plan on continuing in the blessings of marriage, I am going to have to learn how to take care of me. I am going to order pizza for the hubster some nights and curl in bed with a good book, I am going to have to learn how to let baby hang with grandma for a weekend and go window shopping. The more refreshed I am, the better a human being and consequently, a better daughter, wife, mom and so forth.
So in a a little while, I'll board a plane and fly away, my heart might be breaking but I'll paste a smile on my face because I know I'll come back happier, refreshed and ready to be all that I am called to be.
...Musings from atop the potter's wheel...