Saturday, November 24, 2012

Through His eyes…A Butterfly

Hey Guys…So sorry it took this long. For those just reading, this is a continuation from Part 1 and Part 2


I couldn’t escape it… He was here… in my house…in my space and it was time to deal.

We took a walk, round and round we walked around the same block ; him telling me all the reasons why he never saw me as anything beyond a sister till the day I made him confront his own feelings about me… how sorry he was for first saying no to me...how sorry he was for not being there for me,  sorry for making me wait…sorry…. and now he was ready, ready to be all that I needed, ready to marry me!

Running in circles

The whole time he was talking, i was thinking “ Ok, Inthe… what are you going to do, what do you want from him, you’ve loved him all your life, now is the time to either be with him or forget it…

so I decided to …

forget it and forget him…

Proverbs 3 vs 5: Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine understanding.

You see, my flesh had loved him as a child, as a teenager and even then as an adult but all those years, all I knew was that I loved him; nothing else. Once upon a time, I thought love was enough but now, I knew different. So I spoke…and spoke… telling him the reasons, I couldn’t be with him.  I loved him, very much, but that wasn’t enough for me. I told him all this making sure I didn’t look him too deep in the eyes because if I did, I might lose my resolve, sell my soul and marry him. he was what I thought I wanted, but he wasn’t what God wanted for me

cute kids kissing

So he left my house…left my life and I never heard from him again. I graduated medical school, met the hubster, got married, had baby boy…. and never heard a peep from him….

Eccle 3 vs 11: he has made everything beautiful in its time...

Fast forward to this past summer…. our mutual cousin was getting  married…I was going to be a bridesmaid and I found out he was a grooms man.  It had been  almost 5 years without hearing from him and I was ready to see him again.  I had changed and I knew it.  I had lost  almost 30lbs and was more secure in myself. The hubster’s love had shown me that I did not have to live up to any standard but God’s.  I didn’t lose the weight for the hubster, my family, or even my son. I lost the weight for me and me alone; besides the weight loss, the hubster had given me peace of mind that allowed me to blossom and grow into the woman I was suppose to be. I was ready to see him again, look him directly in the eye and show him who I had become.

So I packed my bags, boarded my flight and off I flew to my cousin’s wedding. The day of the wedding rehearsals, I walked in the room, cool as a cucumber.  I heard his voice in another room and went to meet him… With the look I saw in his eyes, I knew my mission was accomplished.

Checkmate

Checkmate!

I walked over to him, smiled and said “ Hey Cuz!”.  He gasped and said …..



To be continued… Stay tuned for the concluding part

…Musings from atop the potter’s wheel...

14 comments:

pearlzville T.O said...

hmmmmm dont take too much time oo..

auntie said...

Dear Inthe, why you do me so? this cliff hanger ending eh!
thank God you're feeling better btw

Yankeenaijababe said...

It is destiny...you always write so well that I enjoy reading your stories.

I think you would love the cd, very calming and worth the buy. Kem sings all the notes perfectly and just puts one in the holiday mood.

Unveilinggold said...

After this hot amala, inthe... and I get this? common na

Abi Tobi said...

o boy! where is the rest?? hope u are home and fully recovered :)

SAMUEL EKUNDAYO said...

His loss, another man's gain... I love this.

- LDP

Ms. Yellow Sisi Unspoken said...

"With the look I saw in his eyes, I knew my mission was accomplished." those words made me smile cause i love that feeling :)

Jemima said...

oya .. waiting for the conclusion...

Funmi said...

Why did I think this story was made up? You are a great storyteller, I was waiting for you to say this was a muse but now I know it is not...I can't wait for part 4. I feel like I am waiting for a new movie to come out.

Hannahs Haven said...

I smiled reading this.

Lol @ mission accomplished : )

Don't delay the final part too long.

Oluwaseun Sodunke said...

Checkmate! Hahaha. I loved the part where you said, after seeing the look in his eyes, you knew your mission was accomplished! Wow.

You're right about him not being the best for you, although you loved him then. There are things we want, but isn't God's will for us. Then, God finds a way to take it away from us. Thank God he showed you better. :)

Myne Whitman said...

So sweetly written, can't wait for the next part. You have become like nollywood :)

In the midst of her said...

@Pearlz….I won’t! Lol!

Auntie: I dey come..lol

Chibabe: thanks!

UV: Don’t worry, the dessert is coming!

Abi Tee: Thanks back home and well!

Sir me sir: My love is on the “You snooze you loose” levels ooh..lol

Miss Yello: Man! The feeling was sweet!

Jemimia: It is coming! LOl

Funmi: na true life drama…lol

Hannah i won’t keep you waiting

Seun: isn’t God da bomb!!

Myne: Coming from you…thats a huge complement! Thank you!!

Jennifer Abayowa said...

"Hey Cuz"???? Oh my gosh, he is your cousin? Lol. This story was written so very well I almost forgot it was actually non-fiction. Anticipating the next installment...phew!