Sunday, March 31, 2013

Moving into the present..

…(cont)

So God had mentioned it and the hubby had mentioned it…I definitely wasn’t going to wait till baby boy brought it up before I did something about it. 

The day I knew I couldn’t continue this was when the hubster mentioned in passing that he was getting more conversation at work than he was getting from me… *Ouch* that was enough to smack me conscious.  So the goal is to be conscious not only in my interactions with the hubster but especially with my interactions with God. How? By knowing them….

The hubster…
1)Open my eyes...
As yorubas say “ Oju l’oro wa” ( The conversation is in the eyes). The first changes I made was eye contact; when the hubster is speaking, I try to maintain eye contact with him. It’s hard to maintain eye contact and not hear what they are saying. 

What are you staring at?

As long as the hubster is talking, I’m looking into his eyes. It helps by making me focus and it helps him by reassuring him he has my full attention.

2)Open my mouth...
Have you spilled your guts to someone only to have them give you a grunt in response? I’ve experienced it and to be blunt, it sucks!  I’m guilty of doing this once, a couple   many times to the hubby and it’s usually a sign my brain is a couple of light years away.
Interview with Steve Wozniak co-founder of Apple
From now on, I’ll try to respond and make interactive comments to what he just said. if I ask poignant questions ( even if its just a couple of “how do you feel about it” and “ what are you going to do about it”) he’ll know I was paying attention.


With God

3)Open my heart...
God wants my attention and I can not count the times he’s told me this. When I disengage from the continuous symbiotic relationship I have with him, the devil slips in and i find myself having conversations with him. As you can imagine, I don’t like having conversations with the devil so into the conscious I go…

"We need to talk" - God
Contact is the key
I mentioned in my previous post that sometimes I “mouth” along with songs without even thinking of the words. Today, ( Resurrection Sunday…Happy easter y’all…He’s risen!!) I tried out my new technique. I was going to pray my songs. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t on my knees, hands clasped singing the songs ( Hmm..that actually sounds good, I might try that one day…lol); I just applied the same concentration I use in praying to singing the songs. let me tell you….It was sweet. I was feeling each word I was saying and BAM! I was in God’s presence.

Worship
My worship today was fresher, newer and more “real” than I’ve experienced in a long time and to be honest, I was on the verge of tears the whole service. I felt a little stupid because I didn’t need to do anything special, all I had to do was mean what I was saying…thats was all I needed to be in God’s presence. From now on, if I don’t think I can want to discipline myself into “praying”(meaningly contemplate the words i’m singing ) my songs, I was going to keep my mouth shut and just listen; even if I’m just in the car. Drastic you might say but there is no point going through empty motions and after what i tasted today, there’s no point in doing anything less. Of course, this is only for Christian songs, it doesn’t apply to Asa or Sade…lol.


…Musings from atop the potter’s wheel

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

This revelation changed my relationship with God too; God became more real to me. We are sometimes carried away by the acts and art of worship that we lose sight of the object of our worship, our Father - God.

Great post, thanks for the honesty; it blessed me.

In the midst of her said...

Amen and Amen…God is painfully simple, its us humans that make everything complicated. Thanks for your comments

Highly Favored said...

Love this post!

'Lara said...

I definitely need to open my heart more to God...I hope you enjoyed Easter.