So God had mentioned it and the hubby had mentioned it…I definitely wasn’t going to wait till baby boy brought it up before I did something about it.
The day I knew I couldn’t continue this was when the hubster mentioned in passing that he was getting more conversation at work than he was getting from me… *Ouch* that was enough to smack me conscious. So the goal is to be conscious not only in my interactions with the hubster but especially with my interactions with God. How? By knowing them….
1)Open my eyes...
As yorubas say “ Oju l’oro wa” ( The conversation is in the eyes). The first changes I made was eye contact; when the hubster is speaking, I try to maintain eye contact with him. It’s hard to maintain eye contact and not hear what they are saying.
As long as the hubster is talking, I’m looking into his eyes. It helps by making me focus and it helps him by reassuring him he has my full attention.
2)Open my mouth...
Have you spilled your guts to someone only to have them give you a grunt in response? I’ve experienced it and to be blunt, it sucks! I’m guilty of doing this
From now on, I’ll try to respond and make interactive comments to what he just said. if I ask poignant questions ( even if its just a couple of “how do you feel about it” and “ what are you going to do about it”) he’ll know I was paying attention.
3)Open my heart...
God wants my attention and I can not count the times he’s told me this. When I disengage from the continuous symbiotic relationship I have with him, the devil slips in and i find myself having conversations with him. As you can imagine, I don’t like having conversations with the devil so into the conscious I go…
Contact is the key
I mentioned in my previous post that sometimes I “mouth” along with songs without even thinking of the words. Today, ( Resurrection Sunday…Happy easter y’all…He’s risen!!) I tried out my new technique. I was going to pray my songs. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t on my knees, hands clasped singing the songs ( Hmm..that actually sounds good, I might try that one day…lol); I just applied the same concentration I use in praying to singing the songs. let me tell you….It was sweet. I was feeling each word I was saying and BAM! I was in God’s presence.
My worship today was fresher, newer and more “real” than I’ve experienced in a long time and to be honest, I was on the verge of tears the whole service. I felt a little stupid because I didn’t need to do anything special, all I had to do was mean what I was saying…thats was all I needed to be in God’s presence. From now on, if I don’t
…Musings from atop the potter’s wheel